I have a particular expertise in snatching failure from the jaws of victory. There's no such thing as a sure thing for me because my ability to screw up the solidest of locks is unparalleled by anyone outside of Martha Coakley.
That's why I'm afraid of waiting to kiss someone, because the right moment may be after something messes it all up. As soon as I see that we both want something, I grab at it because, in every moment we wait, there's a 1 in a 10000 chance I'll make a joke about midgets or that your ex-boyfriend will text you and you'll realize you belong with him or that you'll suddenly become sick. And 1 in 10000 is a small number, but every second that number multiplies.
But my favorite part of roller coasters is that long climb when you hear the cars clicking against the track as you climb really high, knowing about the exhilarating drop ahead. And the more I play daredevil, taking my 1 in 10000 shots one after another, the more nervous I become about whether or not this will really happen, the more I can appreciate the moment at the very top: the hand-hold and the eye contact and smile. The unspoken: hey, we like each other, don't we? And while lips and tongues can do that, eyes and smiles can do it more softly, and more powerfully.
And just like a first kiss is as exhilarating as a roller coaster drop, your heart really starts racing when the car stops and you just know what's going to happen next.
Feel-good movies end with people having their conflicts resolved and optimistic about the future. And that moment pre-kiss is the closest I get to that: conflicts resolved, risks cleared and a bright rising sun ahead.
The Panel: Toby, Gun Street Girl, Cate, Cecily
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That's why I'm afraid of waiting to kiss someone, because the right moment may be after something messes it all up. As soon as I see that we both want something, I grab at it because, in every moment we wait, there's a 1 in a 10000 chance I'll make a joke about midgets or that your ex-boyfriend will text you and you'll realize you belong with him or that you'll suddenly become sick. And 1 in 10000 is a small number, but every second that number multiplies.
But my favorite part of roller coasters is that long climb when you hear the cars clicking against the track as you climb really high, knowing about the exhilarating drop ahead. And the more I play daredevil, taking my 1 in 10000 shots one after another, the more nervous I become about whether or not this will really happen, the more I can appreciate the moment at the very top: the hand-hold and the eye contact and smile. The unspoken: hey, we like each other, don't we? And while lips and tongues can do that, eyes and smiles can do it more softly, and more powerfully.
And just like a first kiss is as exhilarating as a roller coaster drop, your heart really starts racing when the car stops and you just know what's going to happen next.
Feel-good movies end with people having their conflicts resolved and optimistic about the future. And that moment pre-kiss is the closest I get to that: conflicts resolved, risks cleared and a bright rising sun ahead.
The Panel: Toby, Gun Street Girl, Cate, Cecily
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